Thursday, October 27, 2011

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day

October 15th was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance my naive, rose-colored glasses mind, I never thought this day would include me. Not that any woman ever thinks they'll be part of the statistics. Miscarriage, stillbirth and infant death will affect one in four women. Wow!

After Lila's death, I was amazed at the women that I never really knew their stories of loss, through miscarriage or other death. Hearing so many of their stories made me so blessed to be able to say...We had a daughter. Her name was Lila. She lived 16 days and I got to hold her. It breaks my heart for those women that never knew their child because of an early miscarriage.

This day held so much meaning to me. It was our family picture day. If you know me or talked to me in the last few weeks, you knew that I had these pics planned out to the last detail. From what we would wear (which changed several times), to how we would honor Lila in the pics, all the details had been thought out. I'm sure many of you thought I was just trying to get a cute pic so I could post it on Pinterest and be one of those people with the beautiful family pics. :-) That wasn't it at all....This picture was our first family pic that we had really taken since Lila. A picture that she should have been in with her little pink bow. A picture that I had in my head since we found out we were having a girl. A picture of the family that I had dreamed about having since I was a little girl....So when those dreams were shattered I knew that this picture would mean even more to me.

A simple pink balloon...That's all we had to represent Lila in our pictures. Breaks my heart but she's part of our lives and she had to be in the pictures.

I received an email from my aunt a few days before this national day of rememberance. It was about a woman in the area who was doing a baloon release in honor of the children she had lost and those children others had lost too. I sent her Lila's name and her name was placed in a balloon and released that day too. Here's a video and the ladies' story. (Lila's name is the second name that scrolls through on the bottom row).  Go to the link and scroll down to view the video.

Praying for those today who have lost little ones.

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