Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Today was the day...

Today WAS the day....
we had scheduled our c-section to have Lila.
our family of 3 was to become a family of 4.
Lila would wear her first bow.
I was supposed to hold my daughter for the first time.
Griffen would get to hold his sister.
Scott would dance with his daughter for the first time.
I would celebrate with friends for the births of our babies just weeks apart.
the first granddaughter would be born into both families.

Instead, today IS the day...
we place Lila's headstone on her grave.
we continue to mourn the loss of our baby girl.
we celebrate the 16 days that we had with Lila, since some people don't even have that.
we try to forget all the "firsts" that we missed.
I cling to every scripture I know.
I remind myself that God is good and all that He does is good.
celebrate knowing that my little girl is being held by the One who created her.

Thank you for your prayers today!

Psalm 50:15---Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me.


  1. I woke up with you on my heart today! I wasn't sure of the exact date of her scheduled arrival, but I knew it was close. Praying for you today and thanking God for His powerful grace in your lives! You are a testimony to His greatness! Love you!

  2. I didn't know that today was that day. Thank you for sharing your heart--I will pray for you all day today. I do think of you and pray for you and your family often.

  3. Rebecca,
    I think of you often and I know this day has to be so tough. I will pray that God will give you a peace that surpasses all understanding as you miss your sweet little Lila.

  4. I have thought so much of you and Lila today. I love you and my heart breaks with you for all that we will miss. I rejoice with you in hope as well. Thank you for trusting Jesus!

  5. Praying for you as you continue to endure this trial with such grace.